Day 9: My Negative Coping Mechanisms
This is the point in any experiment in which I start to get bored and start to rationalize why I shouldn’t go through with my 30 posts in 30 days. Only 5 people read my blog, I think, and almost all of them know me in real life. I already did the entry about Vegas-Gate. What else is there?
Because the show must go on and because I have to develop some kind of discipline if I am ever going to get anywhere in this life or I will kill myself. Well, I won’t kill myself. I’ll slowly do it with more alcohol and more vices.
Anyway.As I write this entry, my head is burning with the chemical death of Feria hair dye and my neck is covered in Vaseline (a typical Wednesday afternoon) as every single time I looked at my hair, I could see the faded out red from the last time I did a shitty drug store hair dye job and it was making me angry. Soon my hair, which is already pretty black, will be EXTRA BLACK.
I love doing things that give me an illusion of control like dying my hair. My favorites are:
1)Re-arranging furniture
2)Emptying the dishwasher and doing another load of dishes
3)E-stalking my exes and seeing how busted their new girlfriends look
4)Putting up a Craigslist ad, getting a ton of responses and ignoring all of them
5)Going for a walk with my iPod and imagining fantastic revenge scenarios, music video style
What are the things you do to make yourself feel better that don’t actually change anything?
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